Imagine that you are going to go and live in, let's say Spain in twelve months time. So you would need to learn to speak Spanish. You go to the local college and sign up for Spanish lessons. Then you go to the bookshop, into the language section for beginners and buy all the beginners for German books you can find. You go home and over the next few months you study them, you read up on German culture, the best areas to visit in Germany etc.

Then in twelve months time you arrive, lock, stock and barrel..... in Spain..... How good are you going to be at Spanish?. How much will you know about the culture? Where to visit?

You would be excellent at German. But that's not much use to you. How much do you want success in your life? I don't just mean money, How much do you want peace of mind? 

When things don't appear to be working as you wish, take a step back and have a think about what you are focusing on. What you are studying? You may just be studying the wrong language.

If you are studying lack and fear you may be getting very good at creating lack and fear.